Wow! What a crazy, mixed up dream! I had just woken up at 4:30 am from a sci-fi type dream that led me to more questions than I had answers. How could a pregnant women instantly turn into a man, and still give birth? How did that other man just run through bullet proof glass and shatter it to pieces with the impact of just his body. And, is there really such a technology as virobots, that are the size of a tiny flying insect and infected with viruses, that are programmed to fly into a human body? Holy cats!
I woke up with so many questions swirling in my mind. As usual, I asked my higher self, “Is that a memory?”. My higher self answered back, “No, just a downloaded program”. Well, I was kind of dumbfounded for a few seconds because it had seemed so real, and then I asked a rather obvious question, at least it was obvious to me, “What other programs have been downloaded?” The answer…”All of them”. Now, thoughts are flying through my head at the speed of light, and my higher self is answering each one of them at the same speed.
Apparently, every and all of my lifetimes have been downloads. There are certain experiences that I had decided on prior to entering what I think of as a lifetime. I am not being “born”, but I am “entering” the chosen emotionally-based pseudo reality that I desire to enhance my learning and wisdom on a soul level. I do not make this choice alone. I have spirit guides and counsellors, along with the direction of my higher self to lean on. While there are certain experiences that are programmed, the choices and decisions that I make during and after these experiences, shape the overall outcome and ease or difficulty of the experience. I also discovered that death truly does not exist. I simply “exit” the program. I am eternal as a soul, and as an extension of our Prime Creator. I have a whole new outlook on what we refer to as death. I now understand that when a loved one “dies”, they are just exiting the program because they are finished with it, and they have done what they came to do. They are still with me on a soul level, but I can’t see them because they are not in the same program with me anymore.
As you can imagine, this puts a whole new spin on so many things! Any residual emotional ties to any of these programs, can now simply be released. I have been carrying remorse, guilt, anger, resentment, grief, sadness, and many other emotions around with me, thinking that I had wronged so many others in the multitude of programs that I had entered. Now, I feel free. And yes, the others in these programs chose to experience them with me. The difference between myself and them is that the others have more than likely chosen to learn a different lesson from the same experience. That is why although two people may experience the same events, the perspective often differs so greatly.
I knew that something “big” was coming. Two days ago I had a dream about a tornado. My higher self always gives me that image when something important and life changing is on it’s way. Also, last night my brain was being re-worked to allow for these insights to surface. I had a headache that started behind my left eye, and that continued to grow and move about the left side of my head all throughout last evening. It appears to be gone this morning.
The beauty of these emotionally-based reality programs, is that my emotions can change the outcomes and have amazing desired effects to the programs. The program will mold itself to my emotionally created desires. I have a strong desire to live somewhere warm and sunny all year round. I know that it will happen due to the deep heart felt desire for the experience, as well as the reasons for the desire, namely to connect to our beloved mother Gaia, and her loving, nurturing, and devoted presence. It is pretty cold outside today, so somewhere tropical sounds good right now!
To be or not to be, is the answer for me, and not the question. I choose what I desire, and nothing has ever been left to fate, nor will it ever be. I choose to go forth to thrive and flourish.